“If opportunity doesn’t knock, build the door” Milton Berle.
I don’t often get personal here on the blog, but there are days like today when I need to talk, so if you are in a mood for a bit of ‘blah blah’, here I am. I feel kind of stuck recently, and I’m not sure what to do about it…maybe you will have some good advice for me?
If you are following my blog, you know my story, at least the game changing part of it – when I left my corporate job behind to follow interior dreams. It’s been over a year since we’ve moved to Italy and I am very grateful for all the good things and the bad things happening, as they are also necessery to understand that it’s not an easy journey. The blog has grown a lot since the move, brinnging new opportunities, which I could only dream of before. Main thing being – moving my blogging from the couch (or bed occassionaly!) to my own studio. I really like the sound of it – ‘studio’ although it’s a tiny, little space where I take photos. However, regardless the size and the fact that it used to be a stand-alone garage before (!), it is something I am incredibly proud of, for the reason that it was one of those ‘next steps’ which opened a lot of new opportunities.
I am one of those people who don’t often speak about their personal achievements. Reaching goals, is a part of our everyday life, and the satisfaction is always my best reward. Sometimes I even forget about the good things happening and focus on the future. On the other hand looking at how far I have gone since the day I started (do you remember the first posts? I hope not!) there is a lot to celebrate and yet I feel completely…. stuck.
Theoretically, I am ready for the next step, but I am not sure what it might be. Don’t get me wrong, I’m full of ideas, of what might be ‘next’, my ‘to do’ and ‘ideas’ lists are neverending, however non of them seems to be strong enough, to keep me awake at nights. Instead I feel like I am being surrounded by few drafts in my head, missing the plan of action. I feel like I want to play, but dont’t know what game.
Do you ever feel this way too?
I am with my head in the clouds these days, feeling the need to change and improve something. Somehow I know it’s out there but for some reason I am not able to grab it. Perhaps, because it would mean going out of my comfort zone? Trying new things? Being thrown in to the deep water again, when I am already feeling quite comfortable where I am. Or maybe what’s blocking the action is the fear it’s not going to work out? Does it sound familiar to you?
Picture: Agata Dimmich